Love Letter to HIM

There is a post circulating on social media sites that says, "Today is the first page of your next 365 page book. Make it a good one!" or something to that effect. I choose to start my first page on page five, so here goes ... Today, I looked around at the material things I've been blessed with whether I can actually afford them or not. I was grateful for what I have been blessed with, I can say for sure. As I lay back and stare at the ceiling, I noted how quiet it was. The next thought that came to mind was the memory of how noisy it used to be on my ceiling. I would hear the pitter, patter of toddler's feet, the gallop of a dogs paws, something that sounded like a basketball and the general noise of a family living their life. While I certainly can't begrudge human beings simply living their life, I couldn't stand that I lived in a space where I couldn't enjoy the peace and quiet that delivered great ideas, a sound sleep, a meditative ambience and the joy of pure silence whenever I wished. It was only at the will of other families sleeping and/or not being home. As I came back to my present circumstances, I became overcome with joy and appreciation. I thought to myself, "Wow, I really have come a long way!" It's true, I have come a mighty long way. And while I have also given up quite a bit to enjoy the present circumstances I find myself in, they aren't ideal because much of the time is filled with thoughts of, "How on earth do I maintain this? How in the world am I going to continue to live this lifestyle without the income to pay for the things I'm enjoying now?" The lightbulb came on for me on the heels of those thoughts. I know that for all intents and purposes, the life that you live has to be paid for in an exchange of money for goods, services and the like ... something that is very scarce for me these days as I embark upon new ventures and no steady income to speak of. And while we all innately know that you need money to survive and maintain any type of lifestyle you live, I know in my heart that I need and I already have something that is far more valuable than money. That thing I have that will enable me to continue living the life I've carved out for myself and the life that I need to live in order to continue to flourish will continue to be maintained by the one thing I already have and CANNOT ever begin to hope to do without ... that thing is FAVOR ... GOD'S FAVOR. If it weren't for GOD'S FAVOR, I would have been sleeping in a ditch somewhere long ago. I would be homeless, hungry, desperate and alone, but with GOD'S FAVOR and continued blessings ... I do indeed have everything I need. I won't forget it again. I won't take it for granted again. Thank you God for your tender loving care and mercy for without you, I am absolutely nothing.